I am on a roller coaster.
I thought I had all of this figured out, and I thought I was mentally stable and all that jazz,
but when it comes down to it,
I am on a much bigger journey than I thought- and its ok.
I am very proud of where I am today..
I visited the doctor a few weeks ago, and when they measured my BMI it had decreased by a large percentile.
I'm at about 170 right now.
I'M AT 170!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For the past few weeks I've been thinking about where I find my happiness and how I don't want to find it in food, or in false ideas of myself. I want to find my happiness in Christ.
I've also been thinking about this journey I'm on, and how hard it is going to be.
I feel like I owe this to people to be accepted and I feel like a lot of people want me to fail.
But I just have to keep reminding myself that the strength that has gotten me this far is still inside of me.
My journey has just begun!
I'll be there one day.
I won't say soon and I wont say in the far future because I honestly don't know when I will get there-
but I will.
It will be oh so messy and full of mistakes but I will get there.
xoxo
I don't want this to sound sappy and cliche, but if you haven't, go read Taralynn McNitt's blog about her lifestyle change. I was in tears, she is so inspiring!!
http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/
Life is oh so good and I am oh so excited for this new year and Christmas.
I thought I had all of this figured out, and I thought I was mentally stable and all that jazz,
but when it comes down to it,
I am on a much bigger journey than I thought- and its ok.
I am very proud of where I am today..
I visited the doctor a few weeks ago, and when they measured my BMI it had decreased by a large percentile.
I'm at about 170 right now.
I'M AT 170!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For the past few weeks I've been thinking about where I find my happiness and how I don't want to find it in food, or in false ideas of myself. I want to find my happiness in Christ.
I've also been thinking about this journey I'm on, and how hard it is going to be.
I feel like I owe this to people to be accepted and I feel like a lot of people want me to fail.
But I just have to keep reminding myself that the strength that has gotten me this far is still inside of me.
My journey has just begun!
I'll be there one day.
I won't say soon and I wont say in the far future because I honestly don't know when I will get there-
but I will.
It will be oh so messy and full of mistakes but I will get there.
xoxo
I don't want this to sound sappy and cliche, but if you haven't, go read Taralynn McNitt's blog about her lifestyle change. I was in tears, she is so inspiring!!
http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/
Life is oh so good and I am oh so excited for this new year and Christmas.