After a grueling English exam today I decided to just come home and chill.
I ate some medifast MacNCheese (which was uber delicious), and then I took my dog, Bingley, for a walk.
The weather here in Tennessee is just gorgeous right now.
I ate some medifast MacNCheese (which was uber delicious), and then I took my dog, Bingley, for a walk.
The weather here in Tennessee is just gorgeous right now.
I love that all around us there are the teeniest and tiniest of gems hidden right under our noses.
Today I thought a lot about change.
I am really scared and I don't want to tell people about being on program.
I feel really embarrassed that I couldn't do it "right" the first time.
But who is to say where I stand on my personal journey?
Last night was my turning point.
I've been fighting a battle with myself (one I am still fighting) of when I should start, how I'll finish this journey and often my mind gets focused on thoughts like,
"What if I can't?"
"What if I mess up?"
"What will people think?"
"What will people say?"
In all honesty I am scared out of my mind.
I want to change but I don't want this to change me in a negative way.
But I figure I must put those thoughts aside and ask myself these questions instead,
"Who do you want to become?"
"Where do you see yourself a year from now? Stronger? or still making poor choices?"
"Do you know you are loved?"
And those questions bring a feeling of peace.
And I know that peace is from God.
It seems so silly to connect this journey to a spiritual sense, but I am aiming to tie much of my trials to my faith. I know the times when I pray often and ask for guidance, the Lord in his mercy helps me.
I know my savior came to this earth and suffered so much heartache so that when I have made a mistake, I can come back.
I can repent.
That is one of the most glorious blessings I have.
I hope that I can remain feeling positive as I did today.
xoxo
Today I thought a lot about change.
I am really scared and I don't want to tell people about being on program.
I feel really embarrassed that I couldn't do it "right" the first time.
But who is to say where I stand on my personal journey?
Last night was my turning point.
I've been fighting a battle with myself (one I am still fighting) of when I should start, how I'll finish this journey and often my mind gets focused on thoughts like,
"What if I can't?"
"What if I mess up?"
"What will people think?"
"What will people say?"
In all honesty I am scared out of my mind.
I want to change but I don't want this to change me in a negative way.
But I figure I must put those thoughts aside and ask myself these questions instead,
"Who do you want to become?"
"Where do you see yourself a year from now? Stronger? or still making poor choices?"
"Do you know you are loved?"
And those questions bring a feeling of peace.
And I know that peace is from God.
It seems so silly to connect this journey to a spiritual sense, but I am aiming to tie much of my trials to my faith. I know the times when I pray often and ask for guidance, the Lord in his mercy helps me.
I know my savior came to this earth and suffered so much heartache so that when I have made a mistake, I can come back.
I can repent.
That is one of the most glorious blessings I have.
I hope that I can remain feeling positive as I did today.
xoxo