Meet Alex Cubby Teen girl, started basically where I did and she keeps going. It was so inspiring to see that she did it!! She kept fighting!!! HUGE shoutout to you Alex! Thank you! Watch her video, especially the end with before and after pictures! One day after talking to a good friend about mistakes,
He reminded me that we all make them. He went on to say that so many people, especially girls and women spend their lives beating themselves up over mistakes that have been in the past for quite some time. After he said this to me, a red flag shot up in my mind. I beat myself up on a daily basis. Whether I'm mad because my math test didn't work out, or I'm mad that I said something wrong, or maybe I wasn't pretty enough today. The list goes up and my happiness goes down. So, I stopped. We always hear things like, "avoid gossip" "only speak kindly of others" "be kind to those around you" "treat others the way you want to be treated" Well I don't think you'll be quite successful at being nice if you can't even be nice to yourself. Finding a solution to all this self-doubt is a personal thing. I found mine through my religion. I realized that God loved me, and sent me to this earth. And he sent me here to feel joy. I was the only thing in the way of my relationship with God and myself. He is NEVER silent. It is us who build up the walls that only we can tear back down. So I started tearing. It is an everyday work in progress, but brick by brick, I am that much closer!!! Maybe it's the fact that I'm turning 16 in 9 days, or maybe it's the fact that I'm naturally a curious person but all I can think about is love. Now I'm not talking about the stupid teen tumblr posts like this... If you can get over the deepness of the first photo and the chick being suffocated in the second picture, yay for you. And I don't mean to be rude, but don't ask me to stay up and talk to you... I worship every ounce of sleep that I get.
I don't mean to hate on tumblr at all, and sometimes yes I do think these pictures are cute. But, I guess I'm talking about a different kind of love. In my eyes, (please remember I am an awkward teenager who thinks they know everything) I see love as a necessity. It is something you can have everyday if you choose to, and you can give it to multiple people. Love doesn't come when you start dating your significant other, you were born with love. Although you might not have amazing parents, and you might not have come into this world with a great family situation, you were born with the love of a heavenly father who sent you here to return to him. And why does he want you to come back to him? Because he loves you. He sent his son (who chose to suffer for you) to earth to gain a body and then to endure all of the sadness, guilt, shame, self-doubt, heartbreak and pain. He felt it, all. But, Christ had a choice. So why did Christ suffer for your sins? Because he loves you. Your life is a result of people who have sacrificed more than you can imagine. I think about my parents, and I would never want to disappoint them because they put their lives on hold to bring me into the world. They wake me up every morning, and feed me, and help me when I'm hurting. And why do they do this? Because they love me. Everyone, no matter how "small" in the worlds eyes they are, they are loved by someone, and because of that we are obligated to give them a chance. Who are we to judge someone when this world is completely imperfect. When we are imperfect. Now what the heck does this have to do with being healthy and losing weight? It has everything to do with it. Once we realize how much we are cared for and how much we are capable of caring for others, we can learn to have this same incredible love for ourselves. I am important. I am so proud of myself. There are some days where this sucks...big big big time. But no matter where I go, I always have someone who loves me. My hero is Job. He lost all of his friends, all of his possessions; he basically lost everything. Yet, he sat in the street with his head held high and proclaimed his testimony of a God who loved him. I could be the fattest person in the world and I would still be loved. But, I want to show God I am grateful for my body, I am grateful for my chance to be alive and I want to be the best alive me that I can be. And that's exactly what I'm doing. And while I'm making these changes, I'm realizing drop by drop that I do love myself. And because of that, I can love others ten times easier. And hey, hopefully one day I will meet someone who shares these same beliefs as me and maybe we'll just call it love. www.http://mormon.org How do balloons stay up in the air?
Easy, they don't. Unless their weight is counteracted and supported by helium. How do babies first learn to stand? They pull themselves up and use objects around them for support. How did The Barden Bellas win the final competition in Pitch Perfect? They came together and supported each other. (all complete with horizontal running and mermaid dancing of course) See a re-occurring theme here? Support. One sweet peach I've realized I have in my life, is an incredible support system established by my friends but more importantly my family. My mom, dad, and older sister are all doing this program alongside me and I couldn't be more grateful. Their examples and amazing progress are what fuel my fire and motivate me to see this through and reach my final goal. They are incredible! Yesterday, I decided to make this whole journey public. I texted several friends and shared this blog with my family. Almost Immediately after I began to share with others my story, I was completely wrapped in a super cozy blanket of love. It was kinda freaking awesome. If you are planning on changing your life, go all in. Let people know! It doesn't even have to be about weight loss! If you are trying to change anything, let people know. You will need help, and people will come through! Now, sadly, not everyone likes it when you try to change. "There will always be someone who hates peaches" I have a hard time dealing with those picky people, but today I learned that as long as you have a rock, a support system, you will be ok. You might still have days where people really get you down, but by focusing on the positive people in your life, there is no way to fail. Focusing positive energy to deal with people, is much easier said than done, but a few tips I have discovered are... 1. Breathe. When people make snarky comments think about things that could possibly be going on in their life. Did they wake up late maybe? Or maybe they skipped breakfast? Maybe they failed their math test like I just did...sorry mom. 2. Name 5 people who care about you and 5 people you care about. If you don't have five....well then count me. Because I usually like everyone. 3.Name one thing that makes you unique. I can throat sing. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DY1pcEtHI_w Just kidding, I wish I could though. And boom, positive energy is reinforced. Thank you, to everyone who has given me words of encouragement and support on this. I enjoy every little bit of it, and I truly do take it to heart. My savior has given me a beautiful life to live, and I know I would not be here if it weren't for amazing people who have sacrificed many opportunities for me. Life is peachy! Ever since I can remember, I've been a chunk. I mean, look at those cheeks... But even after the baby days passed, I was still a chunk. I've had a blessed childhood, don't get me wrong, but all I can really remember from elementary school (based upon how i felt about myself) was always wanting to be someone that wasn't me. I was called "hannah the hippo" and "walrus" It sucked. But, I guess I just kind of accepted it, instead of changing it. I hid behind my fat because it was where I was comfortable. My first attempt at changing my eating habits was attempting weight watchers in 6th grade. 6th grade. No 6th grader should ever have to go through feeling inadequate or unloved because of the way they look, or feel rejected because of their weight. But I have felt that way since 2nd grade. After successfully loosing 16 lbs. on weight watchers, I binged and quit. Ever since then, nothing about me has changed (mentally) food is my life. Feeling blue? Eat Feeling good? Eat Feeling full? Eat Hanging out with friends? Eat Sitting on the couch? Eat eat eat eat eat I once reached a point where I could down 4 pb+j's, 3 cheesesticks 2 granola bars and 1 container of ice cream in one sitting gross. I have never felt like I deserve to change. I feel as though it's not my right. I have let other people's negative comments, and my own negative comments dictate my life and I honestly have no idea who I am because of it. On March 1st, 2013 My life took a 360. I have never believed in diet companies that sell you food to eat, but one of my mom's really good friends had just lost the amount of a whole person by completing a program called Take Shape For Life a.k.a. TSFL It is a life changing program that is powered through Medifast food, but it is NOT and I repeat it is NOT the same thing. Medifast is viewed as a "quick fix diet" TSFL is a life-changing program. I'm sick of all of those stupid "quick fixes" I'm sorry if you believe in those, but if you truly want to change your life and eating habits ITS NOT GOING TO BE EASY. Everyday i realize how much more mental this change is. All of the negative feelings I've had about myself are all a part of changing my mindset. And it's going to take a while to get over. This is my wonderful family, and in the center is me.
7th grade. I know I am not morbidly obese, but being a girl who had looked like this since 2nd grade, by this time my self confidence was lower than low. I am not happy with myself. I am not proud of myself. But, I will be. In march I weighed 200 lbs. since then I have lost 35 lbs. Now that, I'm proud of. But.... I never changed my mental mindset and I have been doing TSFL all wrong. I haven't been changing for the better. So, today... May 13th, 2013 starts my revolution. Today I am reborn. This is my journey and life all bundled up into one nice little peach smoothie. |